I am a giver. I am a fighter. I am someone who has been taught to fight for the people and things I love. During my whole life, I believed that if I made a connection with someone, I should fight for it and do everything to keep that person in my life. How wrong I was…
I naively thought that every person in my life deserved to be there. I kept giving my all to them and kept ending up empty, brokenhearted, and utterly betrayed. And the saddest thing is, I was doing this to myself. I was betraying and destroying me because I couldn’t let go.
I just couldn’t accept the fact how the people I loved the most could hurt me just like that instead of loving me back. Why would someone reject all the love and care I was giving to them?
After many, many heartbreaks, and lonely nights spent in tears, I finally got it. You can’t change people. You can’t make them love you or appreciate you more.
In the process of being nice to others and making them love me, I lost myself. I forgot to love myself and be there for me. Because, at the end of the day, we are all alone. And when someone turns their back on us, we only got ourselves. And that should be enough. We are enough.
We must be our own heroes and not expect anything from anyone. We must be complete and whole on our own. We must guard our hearts ferociously because if we don’t, no one would.
I am proud to say that I’ve finally let go of people who didn’t value me. I have also learned that just because you love someone, it doesn’t mean that they love you back or are good for you. Just because you want someone in your life doesn’t mean that they deserve to have a place in your life and heart.
I’ve finally learned that I deserve more than someone who constantly hurts me and lets me down. I have faith in me and my future that I will find someone who will see my true worth and be there for me. Someone who will reciprocate my love and my effort. Someone who will treat me the way I deserve to be treated.
I am no longer think less of myself just because someone didn’t see my worth. I am just walking away from them and releasing them from my life and my energy field.
I’ve finally learned to let go…